In
June 2000, I felt incredibly "not good" about my job working as a
successful account manager for a training firm. Even though my employer was
voted as one of the 50 best managed private firms in Canada, and I was
surrounded by wonderful coworkers and supported by the best boss I ever had,
I intuitively felt, without being able to explain it, that I was not in my
"right" place.
I
say "not good" because I really did not feel bad at all. It was
the best job I ever had, period. Yet, something was sorely missing. My guts
told me through mysterious vibrations that cannot be described by words,
that I was simply not where I wanted to be. Something deep inside of me
wanted something "different" although at the time, I was supremely
incapable of articulating what that "different" thing was.
So
I handed in my resignation and realized shortly thereafter, with an
appropriate sense of panic, that I had just committed what sane and rational
people would refer to as "career suicide"!
To
make a long story short, I embarked upon an exciting journey to find my true
self. It took me 5 years to figure out what I truly wanted to become (a
creative knowledge writer!), but I thoroughly enjoyed those 5 years of
joyful exploration.
What
I've learned is that one's inner guidance system (which is mostly emotional)
cannot fail. This is why I ask the question, "How do you feel about
your career?"
If
you wish to probe your own feelings about your work, these words could be
helpful in identifying your emotional states: worried, bored, hopeful,
optimistic, overwhelmed, content, frustrated, discouraged, angry,
enthusiastic, happy, eager, passionate, joyous, empowered.
I would be interested to know how you feel and why you feel as you do, and
can offer some answers to your questions if you wish.
This
"emotional exploration" exercise is helpful whether you share your
findings with others (significant other, friends, relatives, coworkers,
etc.) or not. It's just a way to know yourself better, especially at the
emotional level where happiness is either present or not.
In
our scientifically based society, we tend to think that objectivity is the
best guide when it comes to evaluating the health of a career. Specifically,
we tend to think that as long as one's career is moving forward (in terms of
financial compensation or professional competency or managerial
responsibilities), then everything is alright.
We might have forgotten that happiness --
including happiness at work -- is determined by how we feel inside, not by
what surrounds us on the outside.